I decided to stop aikido.... >.< can't cope. Sick 3 times 'cuz of overwork. Mann that sucks. I dunno what's gotten into me... I think my immune system's down ever since i put on braces or something. Or maybe too much load this year. It was really sad for me la... Had to stop attending aikido, when actually i have the next grading waiting for me in june. But now's not the time. Now the two most impt things ar 1) STUDIES and 2) CHOIR. I'll just put all my energy into these two and then we'll see how. But i made myself a vow that once everything's settled properly i'll pick up the martial art again. I won't leave my grading dangling there i'm gonna complete it!
I think i've yet to be called "grown up", still cannot get my priorities right. I made my tuition teacher and my parents think i'm like hopeless 'cuz i prioritized choir first before tuition. And sometimes i chose to ponn aikido because of music related stuff. You know parents la huh, studies always come first for them. But for me i dunno everytime i hear there's a choir prac or something i'll feel very obliged to attend. Even when i fell ill, i felt so bad for not attending choir prac... Stupid, huh? And other people can just say they cannot come for choir because got tuition or something then they just left. And this applies to even those in the comm. Like AGM, it seemed that only i cared, besides sx. So i thought why can't i just be like these "other people"? It's not like my not being there would affect anyone right? I was never an important individual to begin with, and no one would care enough to change their plans for me anyway. xP So i think from now on i've gotta learn that if i am commited to something, i gotta try my best to stick to it even if other plans start spouting out for that day. I have to learn to work around my plan, not other people's plans. So that i won't make anybody angry, i won't ponn anything i shouldn't have ponned. >.< But even till then, I'll end up disppointing myself to make other people happy.
My head hurts. x(
On a sidenote, david archuleta still rocks!
YOSH, tomorrow turning 17 already! Must be more mature! =)
-always be myself
-DO WELL FOR Alevels
-be a good SC
-polish up table soccer (MUSTTTT)
-lose (more) weight =P
-be more steady
-pass NAPFA
-shed 10mins off SC 10km
-play piano at hotel lounge
