I decided to stop aikido.... >.< can't cope. Sick 3 times 'cuz of overwork. Mann that sucks. I dunno what's gotten into me... I think my immune system's down ever since i put on braces or something. Or maybe too much load this year. It was really sad for me la... Had to stop attending aikido, when actually i have the next grading waiting for me in june. But now's not the time. Now the two most impt things ar 1) STUDIES and 2) CHOIR. I'll just put all my energy into these two and then we'll see how. But i made myself a vow that once everything's settled properly i'll pick up the martial art again. I won't leave my grading dangling there i'm gonna complete it!

I think i've yet to be called "grown up", still cannot get my priorities right. I made my tuition teacher and my parents think i'm like hopeless 'cuz i prioritized choir first before tuition. And sometimes i chose to ponn aikido because of music related stuff. You know parents la huh, studies always come first for them. But for me i dunno everytime i hear there's a choir prac or something i'll feel very obliged to attend. Even when i fell ill, i felt so bad for not attending choir prac... Stupid, huh? And other people can just say they cannot come for choir because got tuition or something then they just left. And this applies to even those in the comm. Like AGM, it seemed that only i cared, besides sx. So i thought why can't i just be like these "other people"? It's not like my not being there would affect anyone right? I was never an important individual to begin with, and no one would care enough to change their plans for me anyway. xP So i think from now on i've gotta learn that if i am commited to something, i gotta try my best to stick to it even if other plans start spouting out for that day. I have to learn to work around my plan, not other people's plans. So that i won't make anybody angry, i won't ponn anything i shouldn't have ponned. >.< But even till then, I'll end up disppointing myself to make other people happy.

My head hurts. x(


On a sidenote, david archuleta still rocks!

YOSH, tomorrow turning 17 already! Must be more mature! =)

~Always look on the bright side of life.

Haha my first birthday present from my dearest mom.... xD A note necklace and 2 carrie underwood CDs! Love it mann!

It feels like the world has been lifted off my shoulders. Chem and Physics CA over, Choir chocolate sales was (fortunately) a success. Lol i guess stressing like crazy over the chinese new year hols plus all this week paid off. Thurs was the ultimate. School in morning and afternoon, followed by tuition and then had to leave early for aikido from 8-10pm. Plus the whole load of homework due on friday... Lucky the choir hoodie design wasnt due on the next day... So ended up sleeping only 3 hours that day and i was SUPER cranky on friday morning... think i scared Chantik off looking like a zombie. And i was so worried i cmi for physics CA 'cuz i never study and it's 10%!!! So i used my super memory skills 5 mins b4 the test to skim through everything supposed to be studied, memorised a few formulas and WALAH! Aced through the test. Haha. Seems like someone up there decided to help me out huh.

Now i shall put my heart and soul and er... voice! to choir. Piah piah piah. only 26 more days to go so must race to the finish! And i'm sure we can make it! *thumps chest twice* xD JIAYOU EVERYONE!

To end it off, OMG i ♥ david archuleta's voice! And he's 17! Haha. Go see on youtube! He sure can melt girls hearts lo. Even mine, i gotta admit. Should go and hear he sing "heaven". Plus he is amazingly humble i hope he's not faking it though... =P Will support him all the way through AI!

Everytime i see water splashing against the rocks, a shiver would run down my spine.

Literally.

Only few would know why. And that feeling sucks. xP

~ 35 more days...

I really can't believe the love i see. :')

I shall spill all my truths here now. So hear me rant.

Truth is, i was aiming for a 1st or 2nd this year. For ttime lar. And vocal groups 1st. I worked hard for it. So naturally an ordinary person WOULD be extremely upset if the he/she didn't even get a 1st or 2nd in the solo and got a 2nd in vocal groups right? SO, being an ordinary person, i cried lo. IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY. embarrassing. >.<>.< But replied this early morning la. Xingqun was right. Not winning it doesn't mean that you're not good enough, maybe it just means that the song choice was not appropriate, or stage presence is not good enough, or maybe the nerves just got into you. A person's ability is not defined by just one performance. Luck counts too.

CONCLUSION: instead of emo-ing around and blaming the entire world that it's everybody's fault that i don't get what i wanted, i'm gonna prove it. Pitch, articulation, stage presence, figure (HAHA) and all the other stuff. SO WHAT IF SHE DIN WIN? SHE GOT MORE FLOWERS THAN ANYBODY, MORE COMFORT HUGS THAN ANYBODY AND MORE SUPPORT THAN ANYBODY. Haha. I'm like eating sour grapes but then i don't care la. Anyway no worries, never joining the solo category for talentime again, give other people a chance LAHH. Haha.

I really wanna thank all these people: LING YAN, SHU JEN, LIYANA, XIAO YUN, CONAN LING CHUNG, YONG JIAN, and durr my MOM and DAD. Haha. Thanks for the sms-es. xD And i thank all who came yesterday for all your support (Igorian OGLs, 06ip06, 08ip06, the rest of the ips and those who know me haha). XINGQUN AND AMOS, thanks for the comments on the performance. I KNOW AMOS TADETE!!! Haha i'll write that just in case Amos becomes famous. =P then i have PROOF!!! Then i can sell the choir store bench in ebay. he always sleeps on it in the morning or when he ponns lectures. HAHA. Can contribute to choir fund. Advanced orders, anyone?



TNT we are the bomb mann! We rock the house! So what if we got 2nd!!?! Toot mann, we had fun and we did our best! Even conan was enjoying himself HAHA. I was like half wanting to laugh when i turned to look at him. And pok pok keh did damn well too even though he coughed blood in choir 'cuz he sang too much. =x We're a buncha people who have completely different personalities and characters, but we get high together before the performance, we piah and piah together after choir practice when nearing a performance, we are in tune in the morning and go sharp for the rest of the day, we all love to sing and we all RAWK THE HOUSSSSEEEE! No more emo ok, we did our best!

Congratz to Sheena and Chester for winning the vocal solos! Haha. I think you both really deserve it! xD

XUEMIN IS GONNA BE THE MOST POWERFUL POWERHOUSE IN THE WHOLE OF NJC! Haha. I'm gonna work hard and improve. So just wait and see dudes. xD

Btw, if i form a band i wanna sing carrie underwood's EVER EVER AFTER. OMG. i love that song. Haha. Got good drummer got guitarists cum harmony singer we come form band lehh!!!! =P

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