Whoo finally got the matt for aikido training... It's damn fast sensei said that we can do grading in december already, but my forward and backward roll are like o.O", even though sensei tried and tried so hard to show me how to do it. I guess i still haven't overcame my fear of rolling about, ever since i nearly broke my neck while doing so when i was young. Then everytime when we do knee walk my stitch on my knee will swell and hurt i was scared the wound will suddenly burst open and blood spewing everywhere. Shucks. So we went to a random shop and bought those kind of "A B C" matt. Haha. You know what i mean. So it means that i can start training from now on. xD Faster grade can faster join the main class! Hopefully grading doesn't co-incide with caroling...

Last week passed by VERY slowly, and i say it again, DOING ONE CHINESE PAPER A DAY IS NO JOKE!!!!! -.-" I'm so sick of it and yet cannot be, 'cuz O levels is on the day after. Which leaves the only few things to look forward to. Alto sectionals were on the dot, everyone who's supposed to turn up turns up. YAYY. I am so proud of you all. But there's been some slack in attendance so must buck up hor... But anyway those who need help no prob come to me or my sl buddy can teach anytime we're free. =P

Aiyo.... Straight after O levels my family fly fly away to korea already... And missing aikido! And i seriously think that its not a good time to miss the lesson, considering that i dunno any of the moves well yet, let alone name them. YOSH, back to wrapping up watching inuyasha and coffee prince then later DO MORE CHINESE!!! >.<

Finished reading Mitch Albom's "For one more day" in just about 2.5 hours today. Not a bad book, though a little long-winded. The thing i dread about reading his kinda books is that he'll make me real emo for the rest of the day, thinking how fast my life is going by and probably ending soon and how stupid i was to have done and felt certain things. And there is this thing i pondered about all morning:

DEATH. It's a scary thing alright. I'm not afraid to admit that i'm personally very scared of it. After many incidents, like a very good example being Steve Irwin dead from a jab by a stingray. Or my uncle dying from cancer recently. It's like, POOF, you're gone. You'll never know when it happens. And then phone calls start ringing and when you answer it, it's someone notifying you that the person is dead. First you were shocked. Then reality starts to hit you and you cry. It's scary to see people pass on one by one just like that. And probably the reason i'm scared is 'cuz i don't know what is going to happen to me when i die. Does my life just ends like that? Do i cease to know of my exsistence? Or do i get reincarnated into some new person and a new life starts over? Maybe it's because i don't have a religion. I talked this over with Liyana and Tingzhi and Chunmeng in class b4. They're not scared of death (with exception of CM, she just shrugged). I guess it's 'cuz Tingzhi knows that when she dies, she'll meet God and all those truth stuff and all. And Liyana probably has her own beliefs too. Chunmeng and I, being free twinkles never know what to expect. Maybe i'll black out and forget everything. Like sleeping forever. Hmm. Maybe i'll sleep forever and enter into some dreamworld and exist in there because i can never wake up from my sleep. But i thought, what if those religion beliefs stuff were not real? (No offense to anybody here) What if you died, and to your disappointment, let's say, you don't see the light of God and stuff? Which is worse, fearing of what to expect before death, or the fear that what you expect may not be what you expected?... .... .... ...

Another thing that probably worries everyone: will i be missed if i die? I guess its some form of human instinct where you feel sorry for yourself in this situation. Face the reality. People move on. Even your loved ones will not waste their whole life away just MOANING for you. Even i don't want people to do that for me either. What about my friends and the people i know? Do i make such a great impact on their lives that i will missed by them? From what i've learnt so far, i guess friends move on too. They come and go, come and go. Only those true ones will keep in contact. Only when you part with your so called "best friend" then the real "true friend test" comes. Whether they bother to keep in contact with you, or choose to stray away and forget you altogether. It's sad for the latter, i know. But nobody blames anybody for this. It's like a natural cycle in life. But after realising this, i decided to cherish every single true friend i've got, because friends and family and the people around you is what keeps you going.

Ultimately, nobody knows what lies ahead.

Ohh mann my stamina sucks now... Last time can jog straight for 30 mins +++ but then i jogged for 15 mins today then bui ta han have to head home. Hopefully it'll be better tmr... Now plan is to work from 2km then slowly until 6km then just in time for marathon on dec. YOSH!

I realised i'm really childish at times. Ok a lot of times. Haiz. I was so stupid. >.< Why do i have to go thorugh all these? Then in the end amount to nothing. Haha now i dun make sense... Nvm.

Anyway i'm coping well with the diet plan. ^^ Hopefully i dun break it then can lose 5 KG MANN! xD If successful then i will announce it. Muahahahaha.

Back to inuyasha! ~~~

Ahhhz so long never blog already... ASS WEEK FINALLY OVER! Not that it really makes a difference 'cuz of the fact that i sinfully played the com for 3 hours and then watched TV for 2 hours everyday during the whole of ass week... Whoops. But should be ok la. Despite the fact that Geog and Bio were pretty crappy and Chem was the ultimate KILLER. O.O May fail lehh. Haiz. Nvm over already, so the next up, to formulate my DIET PLAN!!! Losing 5 kg by the end of the year mann! And i'm serious this time ok... And marathon programme too!

I realised how much i missed choir after going for morning singing today... Haiz. And missed the j2s a lot too... Today their last day of school... Cannot see them walking past the grandstand every morning already... And choir bball team HOW???? Dun care must start a new one! And i wanna play bball with bifang laywang zijiang john gabriel zhirui xingqun cil +++ THEY ALL!!! T.T" I guess some things just have to move on huh? Reality sinks in more and it stinks...

But anyway, ass week over doesn't mean that my exam piah-ing life is over... STILL GOT CHINESE O LEVELS and like 5 HOURS OF CHINESE A DAY?!?! The school is out of their heads lo... And my chinese teacher very nice to me too, so must score well for it! YOSH! For now, back to watching inuyasha (i know its an old show -.-) and formulating my diet and marathon plan! Hurrah!

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