Friday, July 27, 2007
@Friday, July 27, 2007
I think my life is so screwed. Dunno why. Aacks. I've got so many things to catch up on, that i've made a list of homework i plan to do and stuff. And i got a feeling that my character is becoming worse and worse. I've said stuff i know i shouldnt have said and i know that disliking people is wrong, but somehow it seemed like its not my fault that i dislike somebody, 'cuz i have a valid reason for that. And i wasnt exaggerating any of the situations i told other ppl about either, but somehow i think they're getting a bad impression of me because of that. I rarely exaggerate situations anyway. I think i should stop being so blunt partly 'cuz lingchung called me "mean" 3 times. It hurts. But is it my fault? I'm sorry, i'm sorry and i'm sorry. I dunno what else to say. And today's morning singing made me realise how we should stand on our own feet again, and we must get our discipline back up together. Must jiayou. I do miss the seniors, i really do, and i think this years' batch is the hardest for me to let go. This sux. x'(
So from now on, i'm going back to my holding back self. But still cheerful. I figured that's better anyway. It'll make me a better person to other people, i hope, and i won't feel so screwed. No point blabbering stuff to those i thought would understand, but ultimately, in the end, do not care about you anyway, and the stuff you blabber just turns the person off from you. Regrets. I've learnt that lesson. Steady steady. >.< Putting up a brave front is the way to go!
Anyway i've decided what subject combi to take already! Lol like my future's already decided, if nothing goes wrong. H2 Math Chem Physics KI and then H1 History. Lol Ms Oon looked so surprised when i told her i wanted to take history. Must buck up! Then either go NUS to major in architecture or overseas like the university of melbourne or something. And go NAFA to brush up my art. I guess i can say byebye to aikido for now. And to aspire to become a music conductor is way off my limits i gues. And its never too early to plan for next time, better than too late, and better to have something in mind for the future, so i know which subjects to buck up on.
Su min i'm so sorry i still owe you a lunch! Oops. When i have time i'll tell you again k? Gomenasai. xP
So i guess life goes on from here.
