I predict that i'll feel less screwed by friday, 3rd august, 4:54pm. Dun ask me why.


Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. xP xP xP

I think my life is so screwed. Dunno why. Aacks. I've got so many things to catch up on, that i've made a list of homework i plan to do and stuff. And i got a feeling that my character is becoming worse and worse. I've said stuff i know i shouldnt have said and i know that disliking people is wrong, but somehow it seemed like its not my fault that i dislike somebody, 'cuz i have a valid reason for that. And i wasnt exaggerating any of the situations i told other ppl about either, but somehow i think they're getting a bad impression of me because of that. I rarely exaggerate situations anyway. I think i should stop being so blunt partly 'cuz lingchung called me "mean" 3 times. It hurts. But is it my fault? I'm sorry, i'm sorry and i'm sorry. I dunno what else to say. And today's morning singing made me realise how we should stand on our own feet again, and we must get our discipline back up together. Must jiayou. I do miss the seniors, i really do, and i think this years' batch is the hardest for me to let go. This sux. x'(

So from now on, i'm going back to my holding back self. But still cheerful. I figured that's better anyway. It'll make me a better person to other people, i hope, and i won't feel so screwed. No point blabbering stuff to those i thought would understand, but ultimately, in the end, do not care about you anyway, and the stuff you blabber just turns the person off from you. Regrets. I've learnt that lesson. Steady steady. >.< Putting up a brave front is the way to go!

Anyway i've decided what subject combi to take already! Lol like my future's already decided, if nothing goes wrong. H2 Math Chem Physics KI and then H1 History. Lol Ms Oon looked so surprised when i told her i wanted to take history. Must buck up! Then either go NUS to major in architecture or overseas like the university of melbourne or something. And go NAFA to brush up my art. I guess i can say byebye to aikido for now. And to aspire to become a music conductor is way off my limits i gues. And its never too early to plan for next time, better than too late, and better to have something in mind for the future, so i know which subjects to buck up on.

Su min i'm so sorry i still owe you a lunch! Oops. When i have time i'll tell you again k? Gomenasai. xP

So i guess life goes on from here.

Lol i think i kinda screwed up the sc auditions by doing my best flapping my arms around like i thought i should and looking like i was frying food. Argh. I really tried my very best. But i didnt think i made a fool of myself. Did i? Sux mann. Anyway i think the others really can conduct really well and i guess it comes with experience, doesnt it? Nvm must jiayou try harder next time. For me. Lol ehh music com faster out lehh. Let me get over this. And we can start peoperly planning the seniors' farewell programme. xP

Crashed a few seniors' house on saturday. Jiahao and felicia weren't at home, which was a pity. Then i shouted "room service" at fel's house for nothing. Haha then yingxuan had her hair standing 'cua she just woke up and agnes even better, FLORAL PRINTS PYJAMAS!!! Lol. She was so embarrassed. And hugging her pillow. Next was bifang also not at home. Then was zj's house! I knew it was quite big but then it seemed bigger than the last last time i saw it. You can play badminton and soccer and bball and rollerblade there at the same time outside AND still have space to walk around! OMG! Haha. Then wanyun anne jiawen michelle me went to serangoon garderns macs to have lunch b4 i headed off to tuition and the rest went to visit the rest of the people in the district. Too bad i missed the fun. Then after tuition went to buy some stuff and bumped into xiang and she told me how shocked she was when the others crashed her house. Haha overall i think it really was a cool idea. I'm so shocked that conan came up with it but it turned out to be an rv tradition. Oh wells. Its the thought that counts anyway. =P We touched seniots' hearts! And other encounters can be read from the other ppl's blog i bet. The video that comes out sure very interesting to watch one it'll be so cool laughing at them. Kudos to ourselves!

Tmr is j2s and ip4s' last performance at syf closing ceremony. Sigh. Bittersweet memories. And getting kinda tired painting those toilet rolls stuff. But its ok i guess. Jiayou jiayou seniors can look forward to their farewell! It clashes with iperform but i hope everything turns out well in the end. xP And we have to think of another name other than "the dudes". -.-"

Lol finally back from OBS Lumut... Lotsa things happened, but basically we trekked 70km up and down Mt Bubu, and to my disappointmet or relief (i dunno which), no leeches bit me. Lol. But i did see many of them around, including 2 giant leeches and 1 tiger leech which seemed to be attracted to trudy's bag and back. =P Leo and tab got bitten by a leech in the stomach (ouch) and wendy near her ass. Haha. The rest probably got one or two bites on their legs or something while other lucky ones like me din get anything. Yayy.

The next expedition ended quite shortly, you could say, for me, and after a day it ended my tanning spree. Lol. So i didnt get the chance to get much tanner but i'm fine with that. So as long as i'm still living here. You see there was this really sudden storm on the first day of sea ex and trud and i got sucked into the rocks. OMG. The horror. We crashed and crashed into the rocks on our kayak and trud and i screamed and screamed like we never screamed before. I thought i was gonna die. Really. Oh mann. To die at a tender age of 16 is not the way to go. In the stormy sea somemore. So then after a lotta crashed and bangs and screams, the boat capsized and i was so scared of capsizing and all my belongings (on the boat) were lost. Rocks and huge boulders were no joke mann. Super scary. They're super slippery on the surface and you slip on them everytime you try to step onto them. And then when you slip down, there'll be spikey barnacles waiting for you at the near bottom of the rocks. So got cuts and battlescars. Luckily trud sos-ed fast enough and rescue came swiftly. The cuts really do sting in the seawater but at that time i didnt really care 'cuz i was fearing for my life more than anything else. Woah. It really felt like those hollywood movies where the ship crashed into an iceberg or rocks or somthing and then we were screaming for our lives. Aacks. Yep so trud and i had to cross over the rocky island where we crashed nearby to get to the safety boat. So more cuts. Lucky for me, i wore long pants, long sleeves and gloves, so it wasnt so bad. SO in the end me n trud got sent back to base and then to the clinic to get our wound stitched up. 3 STITCHES! I must say, WHAT AN EXPERIENCE! I'm so freaked out when typing this now. And to those people who said i was lucky to have such an experience, i would say that i'd rather not have it at all. Hope all the others injured during the storm get well soon too. xP

So that was about all the drama for the trip. I kinda overcame my fear of heights in this trip thing, and really learnt to be more alert and to treasure my life more. Really. Unexpected things happen the least when you expect it. Durr. That's why its called unexpected... Got to know a whole lotta people better too! So i guess this round's OBS was worth it, plus with the blue peter badge and the OBS Lumut Malaysia badge awarded to us (i am so proud of it), i'm really glad i went for this trip! Lol. And as Fauzi says, HIP HOP HOOREY! haha. Someone inform me when the lumuters blog is finally set up! xD

Haha so long never post already... Maybe that's why nobody tags lol. Yep this'll probably be the last post b4 i fly off for obs or something. Lol. I'm actually quite looking forward to it; not even the thought of leeches biting my legs and leaving my whole socks and feet bloody for hours will deter me from my enthu-ness. Haha. Actually i'm quite curious about the leech biting experience too. =P

Exams were generally ok... 'Cept confirm bob's math and LA are screwed la. Come and set wrong question and make me panic at the last minute lo, so i just left the question blank. Hopefully they'll give us the mark for the question. Then i was so slack during the exam period (like watched 5 hours of TV + Youtube) my mom thought it was holiday or what. But nothing to study ma. All covered a week b4 and the rest is all common sense... Besides, if we did too much, then might end up screwing your whole brain up during the exams so its not worth it. Haha. And a bit of luck goes a long way too.

Haha oh yar went to rw's b'day party on fri and saw my 2i friends there!!! So long never see them liao!!! Lol. Pinn xian Hui yi jaymielol. Plus me its 10% of ex-2i population. And surprisingly cy also went too. Haha bet he stayed so long and stoned there just for sophia! (cy dun kill me when ou read this) Lol so me and trud went to look around random shops for more than 1 hour just to find the present, and then ky joined us later. And pretzels are nice... =P But fattening. Hopefully i'll shed some fop my fats off during obs. Hopefully. Lol so back to the event so the party was quite ok. Haha thanks rw happy one-day-late b'day! Next time MUST MUST have ppwalkers outing. After ya'll Os. And no excuses this time.

I think that's all la. Dang i'm gonna miss 2 choir sessions. I kinda miss choir too. Miss talking to the ppl and going to choir store b4 choir and stuff... Haha but not like anyone will notice my absence... And i wanna play basketball!!!! Why do people do this to me??!??!?? xP Lol and now i'm so bored and i'm sick of maple that i'm going backto neopets and runescape. Ehh it's quite fun you know. =P

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