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Sunday, July 23, 2006

@Sunday, July 23, 2006

About 18 hours passed since the farwell. Yet it seemed so far. But it was a blast anyway, although it wasn't for me... (: I still have 3 more years to go...

The farewell was like the grandest farewell i have ever seen in my entire 15+++ years. Haha. I don't remember cedar's farewell to be that grand, but maybe it was different then, 'cuz we didn't really know the seniors well in the 1st place. I guess its because of our close-knitted bonds, as one choir. It's a great feeling to see the seniors come back, really. But now they're gone again, but we musn't be sad; its up to us to continue njchoir's legacy!

Lee min said that when she saw us altos go up (or rather, down) to perform on stage, she couldn't help but smile to herself, because she's really proud just to see us perform. I couldn't agree less. When i saw the j2 altos come up to sing in the atrium, i couldn't help but feeling happy in the inside too. Its like the feeling that you are on stage yourself singing solo and getting all the glory, except that you're not. GO ALTOS ALMIGHTY! xD You gals sang beautifully! Like swans! Hehe.

Cheryl also said," Friendships may not last forever, but memories do." Yep, i don't really have a lot of lasting friendships, especially back then in primary school, but sure a lot of memories, good and bad. But some of us still keep in contact. Its really not realistic to tell a person that we'll be friends forever; actions speak louder than words for that. But i can assure you that the memories will always stay in my heart, or rather, head. That i can promise.

On the bus back home yesterday, zj and i suddenly talked about fate. I went home and suddenly thought about it more. Really, fate changes everything. I imagined, back then, when i was 6, my mother had the choice if she will sign me up for ballet classes or piano classes and if she chose ballet, i would have been a lot more girly than i am now. Yes, its true, BALLET CLASSES. And if girls were allowed in my pri school basketball team, i would probably have been into basketball and never into choir from the very beginning. And if it wasn't a teacher who asked me to join choir back in pri1, and called to tried to persuade my mum that i can join choir even though i'm very young, choir would have never come across my mind. I was more of basketball and soccer, even back then in pri 1. But my mother never let me joined choir until when i was pri 4. And if it wasn't for my pri6 form teacher whom i used to dispise and who keeps pulling my ear and keeps scolding me for being in one of the bottom in class and not even knowing how to write a conclusion for my science paper, i would never have given her the shock of her life in the PSLE results and never wouls have ended up where i am now. Thanks ms jau for that. I guess it was a blessing in disguise. And if it wasn't my parents' strong objections to canoeing late last year to early this year, i would have been in canoeing and never known about how the choir was like and so on. The rest is for me to know. So you can see how fate changes everything. But i've never really regretted the decision to stick to the decision of choir than canoeing. But maybe if i joined canoeing everything would have been different. Argh i'm messing myself up. *shakes head* But you get the point.

Thank you lee min, dai xuan, yi ting, rhoda, mavis for the alto gifts and notes! Thank you royston for the letter! Thank you Ms Teo and Mr Chia for the reflections booklet! They all really mean a lot to me and i'll always treasure them for sure! Thank you to whoever who created fate to make me what i am now! Thank you njchoir to let me know that i've made the right choice! Thanks to anyone who made an impact on my life in one way or another! Lol now its become like a speech, but who cares?

I really don't know how am i going to take next year's farewell, after being closer to them as time goes by. Well i'll leave it up to fate to decide then, after all, fate changes everything, right? xD